darrencase

heres a video I made in Michigan. Didn’t really turn out the way I was expecting, but thats okay I suppose. Could’ve been better.
Stupid Boy

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about what the hell I’m going to do with my life/career. Not to sound down and depressed like one of those stupid, pathetic emos, but, at the moment, it’s looking pretty bleek and almost empty. Keep going to college and take pointless classes that I don’t want to take and probably fail, aka history, religion, fitness? Drop out and be a looser? Start a design business? Do freelance work? Work for a design company? Work for Burger King and get fat? Get married? Not get married? Be someone I’m not just to get ahead? Become a vegetarian so I can get into Heaven? Wear my brown pants or my grey pants? Wear pants? All theses questions (and more) have been buzzing around in my head for a very, very long time. I often find myself looking at the wall or staring at the ceiling thinking about such things, then suddenly realizing that someone is looking at me with a crooked face thinking I’ve lost it (yeah, but their the ones with the crooked face though). Maybe, I’m thinking about these matters too much, but, I feel like it’s the most important thing right now. I’m 23 in a half years old and I need to find answers damit…

So, I’ve been buying a lot of inspirational books and magazines these past few months, hoping that all my questions will be answered and handed over to me on one of those fancy white gold french plates. The collectors edition preferably. But, to no avail… it hasn’t really happened. I thought it was hopeless, until… one day I was meandering around Barnes and Noble like I normally do, drinking my large salted caramel mocha(it was only 50¢ more than the medium one. They always gets me). I happened to be by the Photography section lightly scanning over the book covers:  Ansel Adams black and white photography. Ansel Adams color photography. Some cheap, gawky, enormous book about America(most likely published by DK). Black and White Nude photography. Clint Eastwood’s face… wait what? Eastwood was staring me down. I nearly dropped my drink. I approached the shelf to get a closer look and noticed there was a “sleeve” covering the left side of the book and it read, “WISDOM”.  A slight smile creased the corners of my mouth as I held Eastwood’s head awkwardly pinched between my arm and hand. I quickly fumbled my drink onto one of the shelves and turned the book around. “So many old people!”  I thought. “Successful old people giving me wisdom! This must have been a sign from God! Yeah, probably not though.” I bought the book and opened it up ever so carefully. Where do I start? From the back? From the front? Yes, from the front! I opened it up and saw WISDOM, printed across a single spread. I wont write out each quote that inspired me, but there was one that really hit home, it said,”Do something in life that makes you happy.”  My stars. Thats it! All of my questions had been answered in a simple, single statement printed in Helvetica Bold on a clean white spread. So simple. So sim… wait, “what makes me happy?” I thought. After a very long pondering session that lasted probably 4 hours into the night I came to the conclusion that; what makes me happy is giving. So incredibly cheesy and cliché as it sounds, it’s the truth. Giving things to people and seeing them smile is what really makes me feel… warm inside. It’s a better feeling than sneezing 3 times in a row and having someone say, “you must have good luck!” But how the heck can I make a living creating “art” and just giving it away? Thats completely idiotic! Nothing is free. So, I’m still trying to figure this one out. Hopefully it wont take me another 23 in a half years for me to get it. Who knows though, maybe theres a book for that. Maybe even an app. Maybe I’ll just live off of welfare. Maybe Obama will ncie give me 5.2 million dollars. Maybe God will slap me in the face and tell me.

I’ve been playing this game called Gravity Duck for the past week or so and finally beat it today! Wooh! You can download it for free with Google Chrome. If you haven’t already, go check out all of the free apps on Google Chrome. They even have Angry Birds.

http://students.southernlabs.net/darrencase/brain_awareness/

heres a site that I worked on (still in progress kind of).

Heres the canvas with the white gesso applied. so far, it looks like I want it to.

Just recently I bought a large canvas. Even more recently, I bought some paint brushes, oil paints, Bob Ross White Gesso, Liquin Original (not sure what it is yet but it looks interesting) and some Gum Spirits of Turpentine. I’m a little reluctant to put that first stroke of paint on the canvas for fear of ruining something, but I suppose I’ll have to work up the courage somehow. I guess… pray for me? All that aside, I finally figured out what and who I want my subjects to be. Huge relief! I want to use two canvas’s to make the painting super wide. There needs to be  a ton of white space to make my idea work. So, here are some pictures of the canvas, some supplies and a sketch or two, maybe three, I can’t remember. I hope to keep updating this blog showing the progress I’ve made.

36x48 canvas

I placed the m&m in the picture to give you a size comparison.

Most of my supplies so far.

I think I need to get zinc white as well.

Soviet Cosmonaut Helmet

I’ve always wanted to be a Cosmonaut.